(From the start of a previous version of the text, which I called the Gospel of Oblivion.)
What if that is His whole plan after all, to make all the saints, God? This seems unlikely, as I thought I was somehow the greatest human being after Jesus Christ, and I am not. In this plan, I was to be the first one to be God. This plan seems to fall apart, as I don’t seem to be some great wizard, but only helped to seem one to get some work done.
It seemed to be that I only accepted Christ when I saw the version of the HEAVEN that I wanted to go to. Perhaps it was a deception of the Devil, and Heaven is incomprehensible to one who has never been there. This seems likely.